tikay
23rd January 2008 - 07:38 PM
Have you seen this song on my myspace page?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1n5sd94XIREWe are certainly delicate AND resilient and strong...all in one!
The fact that our nervous systems may be damaged by drug use (like mine probably was) and lead to a need for medication to give back the ability for proper synapsing...in the brain. The fact that any serious medical condition can see us teetering on the edge of life and death. The way we can recover and thrive are all fascinating and interesting things about having a human shell.
I think what fascinates and captures me most is the soul. The soul has to be something real. We can't just be a body with a mind that resides within the brain and dies when the body dies. Can we?
I think what makes us feel whole is this SOUL aspect of being human. The thing we call Heart...HEART & SOUL, this is my biggest wonder and study. You have a religious aspect, believeing in a religion once very near to me...to my heart.
I needed to let it go a bit to explore other venues openly, but I understand how one can feel with that foundation and that HoPe. That Christian FAITH to hold on to. And to have Jesus as a best friend. I used to tell folks that i had a very unconventional outlook about my brother Jesus. I saw him likened to a spiritual "football player" type brother, who would never let anyone harm me.
I also saw him as a very close best friend and shared everything, good and bad with Him. That was very satisfying to have for my life was a very rough one at times.
If we let our soul wonder from one religious order/sect to another in openness, and discover the underlying themes, we will usually come to a place in the road where we feel a need to choose one over another. That place is where I live...in a place of choosing not to choose one. i love them all.
My sons father is a devoted Christian and he often had the boys in his home and took them to church when they lived with him and my son Tui, is like you, close with his Bible. I think having physical problems leads one to that place in the road sooner, where you decide what you believe because you feel you could leave at any time and you have a need to know where it is you will possibly be heading. Near death experiances...old age, and harsh illness will lead one to this crossroads.
I have had lots of NDE's...since spinal meningitus at 11 months and onward I sort of knew time here is not guaranteed, it is more a day to day blessing or (curse) or both! I have needed to increase my spiritual power exponentially...since I had so many problems I think. Being molested by a step-father at six was horrendous. i also gave my life fully aware of what I was doing at the time to the God of Christianity at six. I asked for a special area of service to be given to me on that day and I have never realy changed my mind about serving the Source of Life and Lifes peoples that I meet. I don't know why I am happy to love all these religious orders I love so equally. I am not afraid of the wrath of any one God upon my death...I just hope there is a life beyond...and not some sort of oblivion...how freaking BORING that would be!
Hmmm....I didn't plan to get into all that, but sometimes I let the flow take me where-ever it wants and so...there went I!
I think you have a world of potential to display and enjoy there in your life and to know that we are also very strong aganist the green glass...with our protectors and our agents of protection, that all will be well in this wonderland called life.
I think craving some foods is like craving anything else, if we indulge, we realize that we have done something that may be harmful, and we do something good to make up for it...extra vitamins from another souce, whatever. (Fish and chips sounds delish~)