How do you know if it's too much?

***? All my life i've been this shy, guy (and overly religious,) but I just paid a web cam girl like $3.00 per minute to dance naked for me live, and then tipped her more on top of that.

And no, it's not the same girl I'm supposed to be talking to to date.

And this is almost totally out of character for me. Ok, I'm a single guy and I've admitted in the past even on here that I have looked at porn a few times, but I've never paid somebody for live strip teases or other porn dance or anything remotely like that.

It felt good just to be nice to her, for god's sake, and what she did for me was more than worth it, easy.


Is this something I should talke to a doctor about?

But then again, the Female psychologists prescription for me, besides the medicine, was that I "get a girlfriend," which is true, but when you're as screwed up anxiety as I was that was impossible.

Maybe I'm "cured," we'll have to see, but I'll have to do something to test myself some more, but I don't know how I'll react and go over some line.


The other day I even managed to interact with a "ten" woman in Wal Mart, which took a few minutes for me to get up some nerve, but it wasn't exactly what I hoped by at least I did talk to her, which I'd never do before.

Oh goodness.

It is changing my mind and the ways I think and interact in ways I might not be aware of...I don't know...like suddenly finding I'm attracted to women for different reasons than I used to be, or focus on different features, or something like that.



If I'm on the medicine I might not be true to my former self, but if I'm off the medicine I am useless.

What the heck should I do?



The main "bad" part of all of this is the realization that I have suffered practically crippling social disorders all of my life, which could have been cured by a freaking 5 milligram pill the whole time.

or maybe it's a side effect of the Neurontin, or both, whatever...

If you feel that your behavior is out of control, then talk to your doctor.

Otherwise, use your new powers wisely.

no on talking to the doctor . If you do talk to the doctor tell him you could help him with his sexual disorder, That you made a brake trough in revelations . That is ::: Sex is good.
It relieves a massive amount of tension . You came get to a point where you can throw those drugs in the trash . Your less likely to get cancer too. Yeah that is the latest greatest discoveries . People with healthy sex lives are less likely to get cancer.

Now a picture starts to emerge . A happy productive life leads to good health. Coupled with eating a verity of foods including plenty of greens yellows orange colored vegetables and fruit. Plenty of exercise and plenty of sex which I might add falls into the exercise set. You burn plenty of calories having fun .


O.K. here is a challenge for you :::: Eat one orange every night for 2 weeks. Then see if you have a change in your stamina . One orange every evening . You have a time period of 7:00 to 9:00 what ever time zone your in . Eat one in that time period every night for 2 weeks . You can continue all your other habitual use . Except you might start having a change in your bathroom behavior so if you have not plan for that little extra time in the bathroom . I call that out with the bad . In with the good out with the bad

In case you haven't noticed, Mekigal is verifiably insane.